The Prefect Monitor

Altamira made her feel safe.

So, after being desensitized to sexual things with Altamira, she began to feel safe with her. She began to become more open about the idea of sexual acts, but only with Altamira. Then, she became okay with sucking people off when Altamira told her to. Lastrae found out she liked it. So, her comfort grew a little bit more, but she was still terrified of actual sex.

The first big moment happened with Sarah, the hermaphrodite at the brothel who Lastrae slapped if you remember. Lastrae had a hallucination, thinking Sarah was Altamira. She was so used to sucking people off at that point that when she began to inspect Sarah for STD's, she just. . . went into cocksucking mode, thinking that penis was Altamira's. When she realized it wasn't, she was terrified. Totally shocked. Her self-control was slipping.

Then, the second big moment came when she had her other hallucination. The big one.

Now listen closely.

A year passed since she met Altamira. Her opinions about sex changed, but she never actively thought about it. Her traumatized mind was healing, and it spoke to her in the form of a hallucination. In that hallucination, she screamed at members of the church, at the high priest. She told them that banning sex in the church was wrong, that sex was just an act. It was not innately bad. These words of hers were truly her own, coming straight from her unconscious mind. At the end of it, Altamira was there, proud of her.

Her unconscious mind knew Altamira would be proud of her for being so strong, of having such a wise, liberal view on sexual acts. And that is when Lastrae realized it was a hallucination, a trick of her own mind.

Keep listening closely.

Lastrae had a dormant libido. Stifled for years. Altamira awakened that, and all that energy was directed toward Altamira, because she made Lastrae feel safe, loved, and that sexual things were okay. Because she was becoming openly horny more, her scars of being raped starting to heal, Lastrae could not control her sex drive. She went to the nearest, most logical person to get laid. Sarah.

Her mind realized the horrors of more trauma were around the corner since she was about to have sex, so it spoke to her. It told her, reminded her, that sexual acts were okay. That whole screaming scene in the church were her own words bubbling up from her own mind.

When Lastrae came to, she realized became aware of all of it. And she accepted it. She accepted that she had a sex drive, that she was horny, that she wanted to this sort of thing. She wasn't happy that it was with Sarah, but she learned at that moment that sexual desires could make you do things you didn't want to do.

She never wanted to do it with Sarah, but the damage was done. . . and she begrudgingly accepted her pussy's needs.

Don't worry. Lastrae wants only Altamira to do that to her. She's. . . aware of what goes on in her own mind now. She used to lie to herself, she used to think she was in control, that she was seducing Altamira, but in reality she was seducing herself. She was wanting and needing these things, and she made excuses to give them to herself. She knows now it was folly to think she could ever fool Altamira, to ever seduce her, to ever have power over her. She knows Altamira had the power the entire time.

. . . and that just makes Lastrae respect her even more. It makes her more devoted, more trusting. Because Altamira helped her through that trauma in a very unconventional, but very successful way. She owes a lot to the Lady. And she gives back in a way she has come to love.

Cocksucking.

But I bet you all saw that coming, didn't you?